Would you rather?

Would you rather have a boring repetitive job that paid $9000/month or an engaging job that you really enjoy but it pays $2000/month? 
 Believe it or not, I will choose the high paying job. I know I'm really money faced but if I look for the job I will look at the income first, then how interesting the job is. I'm actually okay with any job because if it's boring, I can motivate myself to love the job since it has a high pay, right?

Hmm.. But if the $2000 job is REALLY fun, like being a blogger, I will take it, but I will probably have another part time job since it will be more financially stable. LOL why am I so critical. I just treasure money a lot, like if someone that I'm not close to wants to borrow money from me, I'll be hesitant and try to show that I'm not willing to. Why? Because I don't feel secure with my money in other people's hands. *shrugs*

Would you rather be ugly and rich or pretty and poor?
I choose pretty and poor ! For me, I believe if you're pretty, you can be a supermodel and earn lots of money! And you can even have a good social life and be recognized! Beauty will really get you anywhere! (Well, almost) And if you're ugly it's hard to find love. Yeah yeah I know you all will say love has no boundaries but you can't deny that you will be more attracted to handsome/pretty people right? And it's kind of easy be financially stable because as long as you have qualifications it should be easy to earn some money right?

My friend she said that with the money she could get plastic surgery and it will only cost a few hundred thousand dollars, and the problem of ugliness is solved with nose/eye/lip jobs and facelifts. But when you have kids then they'll turn out not-so-gorgeous and then they'll find out the truth which is quite unpleasant. -cough-

Would you rather be really short (1.4m) or really tall (2m)?
 I'd rather be really short :) Sure, I would LOVE to be tall, but the maximum I'll go is 1.75m? Because any further then people will think I'm a transvestite since I'm of a man's height. (no offence lol.) And also very hard to find a boyfriend who's above 2m, at least in Asia. You can't wear heels too!

Most people think short people are cute ok ^_^ And you will look young and youthful! 
(I say one.) Just look at short bloggers like fourfeetnine and xiaxue! They're cute!  

BEING SHORT IS AWESOME. 

Would you rather be tall and fat (1.7m and 67kg) or short and skinny (1.55m and 40kg)?

What do you think? Don't need to say. OF COURSE SHORT AND SKINNY!  BEING SKINNY IS MY LIFETIME GOAL YOU KNOW LOL.
But I would choose tall and fat if I know I had to power to lose at least 17kg to qualify "being skinny", which is kind of impossible since I can't even lose 2kg.

Would you rather have a gorgeous face and a not-so-hot body or a hot body and a not-so-gorgeous face?

Gorgeous face and a not-so-hot body. Because it is quite easy to change your body if you have the commitment to exercise and eat healthy :) Not many people are born with pretty faces!

For the other one, even if you have a hot body, most girls will have one too because it's a bit more common. And it's hard to change your face unless you go for plastic surgery/make-up which is a complete waste of money. I will NEVER go for plastic surgery because it looks very painful wtf. I can't stand blood and pain and the stitches and all looks very painful. And also it's very money-consuming and people will judge you like some shit, calling you "fake" and all. But no hate towards people who had them! 

Would you rather lose your crush to your best friend or your worst enemy? 

I'd rather lose it to my worst enemy. Then I can hate them both. Like I can be sour grapes and say, "I knew he was such an idiot! Setting such low standards for himself, liking that bitch!" And then it will be easier to get over them since I hate them to the core. There will be less hurt to the heart and it will be more of hate.

However if you lose it to your best friend, you will just feel very hurt and can't help but feel extremely jealous. It will just affect your friendship badly and you'll be bearing grudges at her secretly. You'll keep asking yourself, "Why is she better than me? What did I not have?" and all those questions which will make your ego drop or smth.

Would you rather be alone forever (no family/friends) or disliked by others forever? 

  I'd rather be disliked forever. At least you have people around you who at least know of your existence and you can at least talk to them. And even if you're disliked, there must be some people who actually care about you. Being alone is so scary like imagine you live with no one's company, have no one to talk to, everyday it'll just be you. At least for the other one you can quarrel with them.

My worst fear: Dying alone and no one knows of your existence and then I'll just be burnt to ashes and then no one comes to my funeral :( CHOI CHOI CHOI.

That's all! I realised many of my questions are superficial wtf. If you have any good "Would you rather" questions comment! :))

 

SYF 2013

If you haven't read the news, read it HERE

 Well, since it has GREAT relevance to my previous article on choir, SYF and how it is ruining my life, I shall do an article review about it.

If you do not know, SYF stands for Singapore Youth Festival. It is a competition held every 2 years and most schools participate in it. SYF is for performing arts, not uniformed groups/sports. Normally there are 5 ranks:

Gold with Honors (the best)
Gold
Silver
Bronze
Certificate of participation (the worst)

The schools make a freaking big deal out of SYF and use their awards to haolian (show off) how good their school is in terms of promoting the arts and culture(Wtf)

Firstly, I think many people misinterpreted the article. The article only talked about certificates, but it did not talk about the different types of certificates given out.So there won't be bronze, silver and gold awards anymore, i will be replaced of certificate of distinction, accomplishment and commendation. So there is still judging of choirs! Which I think, doesn't make a difference at all! I think people should calm their tits because there is still judging of our performances and our hard work wont go to waste! The only difference is that the awards are gone and they are replaced with certificates of different ranks.

To be honest, I welcome the change. Most of my friends/schoolmates rage about the change, but I think it's good because at least the government understands how SYF is stressful and takes up a lot of our time. It tries to change our perspectives on awards. So what if you got a Gold with Honors award in the SYF during your JC days? I mean you probably won't care about all that by the time you are working, when you are working. I mean who actually looks at your SYF record when you are gong for a job interview or applying for a scholarship? Seriously.

You hear teachers saying that everything is as important as studies but in this harsh world, they only look at your As/A*s. Ok maybe I don't really know but if I were a boss I will just look at his/her character and academic results not his/her CCA record. But I do agree that SYF matters if you want to be a dancer/singer or any job in the field of the arts. For common folk like you and me, em.. it doesn't really matter.
 
 However, I feel that the new SYF has some flaws *deng deng deng*

 "I have seen students putting in a lot of effort into training, which can last up to 7pm every week day. Sometimes, the students would be excused from lessons so that they can go for training sessions."
-Quoted by a teacher in the news article

Even with the new SYF, guess what? Nothing will change. Students will still stayback until 7pm for each training, students will still come back for Saturday practices and students will still have to skip lessons to attend to their CCA. Do you think that the CCA leaders/teachers will still let them off by having lesser practices?

NO.

FOR YOUR INFOMATION OUR NORMAL PRACTICES LAST UNTIL FREAKING 6.30PM.

So we will still have the suffer like some shit although this new scheme is supposedly trying to reduce our stress. Everyone will still treat it extremely seriously like it's a life and death event. Because everyone will be politically correct and be like, "Although the rules have changed our efforts still must remain and we should continue to put in our 100%.." Yeah, you know what I mean.

So overall, this thing will have a very small impact on us. If the government really wants to reduce stress, they should just cancel the whole SYF, seriously. I'm not kidding. Why cut the SYF by 20% when you can cut it by 100%? Either it's no SYF or SYF, no little changes/modifications are allowed. These things won't really benefit us.

 Possible things the gov. could do
1) Put SYF to a stop
2) Put CCA to a stop (Even better lol.)
3) Impose a rule that in a week there must not be more than 6 hours of training or else it will be considered as child abuse (Yes, that is the best to reduce our anxieties!)
 
I think number 3 is the best and is the most valid. Here's am example to prove my point:

 In every week we have 5 days of schooling. And for my timetable the maximum number of hours of a subject for a week is 5. That is for math, 1 hour for every schooling day.

If we put in 5 hours/week for math (a quite important subject), why must we put in more than 6 hours/week for our CCA(a not so important thing)?! LOGIC PEOPLE, LOGIC.

For the people who complain that SYF is the thing that actually motivates them to work even harder for the awards, well it's not about winning the awards. It's more about having passion in your CCA. It's about learning how to enjoy it and also strive to achieve for yourself (not for the award). Competing for awards is good, but what are we chasing the awards for? It's not about the awards awards awards, we don't need your awards awards awards, we just wanna make the world danceeeee.

I think instead of SYF they should organise a yearly school exchange where 4 schools can combine and then mix around and share their techniques/skills to doing well in their CCA? Obviously less stressful and more effective. No need for auditions, extra practices and what not. No one will die/cry!

Thank you. Lol.

Out of place, but this is my #ootd :)

And a random zilian picture

Always the same things.

The first two weeks of the holidays have been..torturing.
You wanna know why?
Because of choir.
I had to enlarge, bold, italic and underline it, thank you.
You know what, I had 5 practices from 8am-4pm.
Which equates to 40 fucking hours in school!!
Ok maybe the lunch part didn't count, but this leaves us with 35 hours!
I find math homework more fun than it actually.

So we had this "grouptionals" thing where you sing in groups of 8, which is kind of scary. Imagine only 2 people in your section, and you must rely on your own.
And if you sing badly, people will judge you. They think you're a liability, they think you're of no use to the choir, and most of all they think you're a two-faced,  irresponsible and probably no talent to sing at all.
I have developed this fear of octets since year one. I don't mind singing in octets, but the problem is I can't hit the high notes! I'm in soprano and those notes are really high. Mygod why did I get into soprano.

*Flashback to March 2011*
I was singing for the SYF auditions and I only joined in January, I was new, I didn't know what to expect. To make things worse, the conductor only wanted 4 people to sing at a time.
Obviously I sang badly because the fact that I've only joined for 2 MONTHS. I could feel the embarrassment as my cheeks burned and I could feel everyone judging me and stuff.
So a bunch of year ones and I failed, I think 80% of the year ones failed? And then one of the music comm members (I shall not say who) started scolding us. Like raging at us as if we committed a crime. "What do you think this kind of standard is this? Is this what you want for the choir?" blah blah. I was super annoyed and thinking, what do you expect from people who only has been here for 2 fucking months, huh? Huh?!

And then the comm people, namely the president and vice presidents will start nagging at us about how our standard has dropped and be like, "Oh don't come crying if we get a silver later. For your standard I don't think we can even get a bronze." So demoralizing. And the cycle continues as the next committee takes over. It's always the same old words. See what happens when the seniors learn from the juniors? So in May 2011 there was handover and a new committee taken over.

At first I was like, "Aww the year 3 2011 look so nice!" But later they turned into such strict people wtf. Especially the president, keep giving the bushuang glare lol. And I'm pretty sure she gives the glare to everyone.

So there was concert this year in May and we had octets too. And then they went on to nag again. Once again, it's always the same words, threatening, making us feel shame.
 "What do you think of this? Do you want to present this in concert? Do you think people will want to pay $10 for this concert? Even if the concert was free, I also wouldn't want to go! It's a waste of my time."
I swore they said something like this! I was like fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you. Go fuck yourself. Stupid committee. They also wanted threatened that they will take us out of concert if we don't sing properly. And then they really took people off stage for one of the musical-play, except they said that because it was too cramped. Bullshit. Why is there a need to audition? Calm your tits, this is a CCA, we are not some professional performing group such as the Vienna Boys and what not. No one really cares if we got a note wrong or sing sharp/flat. In reality, as long as the song sounds legit and seems like proper music, they don't care. If they one perfect music, ask them to spend at least $100 plus for a professional one, or even $200 plus! I feel that everyone should have a chance to perform as if you don't let the juniors perform, it's kind of demoralizing to them and they'll hate choir even more. That's what happened to me, btw. They joined choir to perform for others. Imagine the pissed-off-ness when you've been practicing the bloody song for 6 months and you suddenly tell them that they are not allowed to perform 2 months before the concert, well, go screw yourselves! Why do they need to be so fucking uptight about it? They should think about our commitment, at least we go for these agonizing practices, I think I have perfect attendance ok. I should pon choir next time!!

For example, if you went to a piano recital and have not much musical background you would have thought that your friend who is performing played very well, when in reality, he tells you that he played a few keys wrongly. And then you'll be puzzled, thinking to yourself, huh, but it sounded so normal and nice! I didn't hear any mistakes! The same case in an EDS concert. For many people who do not have a background of hip-hop, if a dancer misses a move you probably wouldn't have noticed it because you are totally clueless in hip-hop and you think that everything that dancers do are cool, so there you go!

And also, I wonder where the ticket sales go to. I know at least 500 guests were there, so $5000 was made.Eh excuse me, we are performers, at least give us $2 each as our commission okay, we must have put in don't-know-how-many-hours in it! Making use of our efforts eh? 

Oh, back to reality.

So this year in June another new comm has stepped up, I think they're a bit nicer but once again, I told you juniors learn from seniors right? They've also continued with the nagging with almost the exact same message.
 They always say that "Everyone makes a difference." and be all positive and shit and draw out rainbows. But I don't think I do. I can hardly be heard. To be honest, I think only the loud ones make a difference. For someone like me who sings softly, no one really appreciates my existence. 

So after the octets, they nagged again saying "Is this what you want to present for SYF? Who will be proud of presenting this? Do you think you still can get your gold with honors? If you think you are proud of performance, raise your hands." 

Of course no one raised their hands lah! You don't say. Actually I think this comm is much nicer than the previous one, just saying that they should quit nagging, although I believe it's absolutely impossible to stop it.

I bet the same thing will happen after the SYF auditions too, and then it will happen after the SYF too. It's like we will never be satisfied.

In my primary school choir, we were all happy. Although I only had one close friend, I still had fun. We were allowed to read books and even use our handphones secretly wtf. The conductor was super nice and rarely got angry at us. And you know what, although we went sharp, we still got gold with honors, so this proves my point that a happy choir is a good choir.

Ok this is the end of my really long rant. I realised this post in 1261 words long! Cool right! :))

At Bugis!

On the last day of school, Angeline, Charissa and I went to Bugis to shop! We originally wanted to take neoprints first but unfortunately it closed down. IT CLOSED DOWN, LIKE BOOM, AND IT WAS GONE.
I was kind of devastated because my classmates and I have been going there since primary 5 and it was the only place that I could shamelessly act cute and pretty T_T NOOOO.
Anyway we went to bugis street for shopping. To be honest, I've NEVER been there before. I thought bugis street was the little alley in Bugis Junction with little pushcarts at first omg am I fail or what. 

Bugis street was really quiet with a lot of youngsters. And I saw some aunties there too lol!

And then I saw this signboard saying "I LOVE SEX" LOL. You can see it near the enterance there. It's hard to miss it!
I walked past the shop and realised it was an adult shop selling sex stuff. Seriously, I was fascinated by the stuff on display, but don't mistake me for a bian tai!
I swear I must visit an adult shop before I die.
And no, I'm not a pervert.

Ok back to Bugis.
It had 3 storeys and it was kind of confusing since we couldn't find the escalators to go up or go down, and sometimes we had to walk one whole round.
On the first floor, we saw a mini pushcart selling bracelets! And it was really pretty, not to mention cheap too. It was one for $2, three for $5! It was perfect for a friendship bracelet, so we bought it!
 
Pretty right! And it's only about $1.70! It will cost you at least $3 if you buy it outside. And I really love the shades of blue and pink and also the simple beads ^_^

And then I bought a studded hairband from De Elegance (Level 1)

I was SO HAPPY to see this! Like I've been looking for a studded hairband because all my hairbands are super plain. And in the other parts of Bugis street they only sold the pointy types which was too rocker-ish and aggressive for me,  so was pretty happy to see this!
I paid $2, for this and I admit that it's a bit expensive (You can buy those cheap plastic ones at $1.20) but this one is made out of metal and leather so hopefully it will last longer than my previous hairbands that have a lifespan of 4 months.
The downside is that my head will hurt abit when I wear it I think my head is too big.

On the second level, I found my best buy yet - A MUSTACHE TOP! Angeline and I are obsessed with mustaches :x

AND IT'S PINK ASDFGHJKL. You have no idea how much I like pink. The armholes are kinda big (as usual for me.) For almost all the lose tops I buy, the arm holes are too big :( And crap i think the thing bulging out is my stomach -.- Pardon it.
Angeline bought the grey one. It's 1 for $12, 2 for $20, so we saved $2 each :D That's why it's good to go shopping with a friend - you can save money!
Don't worry if you're shopping alpne, you can mix and match with other patterns too! Btw, that stall is called Cheris :)
You can wear it wih decency as shown above or you can reveal a bit:
 
Or show your whole stomach if you have abs or a flat stomach. BARE IT ALL LOL.

 Sorry I have stomach fats T_T That's why I wanna lose weight so I can wear like that next time.

After shopping, we went to take a snack! :)

This is the famous pancake stall there! It's something like the man chien kui at hawker centres but their pancakes are REALLY THIN. Like paper like that. But don't worry about not getting full because it's still quite filling! The pancake is really tasty and crispy. There are diff flavours from red bean to pork floss and bananas and whatever. I bought the durian flavoured one and it made me full haha!

We later went back to Bugis Junction to camwhore .__.


With Angeline!


With Charissa!



Lol why I every picture have same face.

Ok byes! I don't know what should I blog about next hmmz maybe I will do a comparison on secondary school and primary school life?(: 

EOY review- part 3

So I got back my EOY overall results back.
And i’m in a happy-yet-sad mood.
Yeap, my percentage definitely improved and my EOY results were better compared to term 3.. But my GPA remained the same = no improvement. So yeah, kind of disappointed :((
And i’m even more confused about what combi I should choose, I discovered how bad I was in the subjects I thought I scored well in. I got an A for science but i’m still the bottom 25% of the cohort BOOHOO. And my LA is only the top 75% which is pretty bad, so I lost confidence in my LA, so no Lit for me. But I kind of have a craving for taking Lot because it seems much easier but I’m scared my language standard now will really die on me! I still remb I got 15/30 for the passage based thing last time.
I thought I did well for history but it’s only top 50%. I thought I was really good in history but.. apparently not oops.
On a high note, I got top 25% of geog EOY yayz :D Although I got a high B lol. But I think quite a number of people failed that’s why can get so high. But still refuse to take geog because I have been getting Cs and low Bs for my normal assignments, pop quizzes and common tests. Always got 5/10 for pop quizzes one. The reason why I was able to scrape through was because of my group projects.  And geog was pretty torturous memorising facts and DRQ is also terribly tedious. (Alliteration!)
So yeah, I guess my only humanities I can go for is History! I love history a lot. Like it’s easy for me to analyse sources and you don’t need to study for them. And for essays you just need to memorise the chronological timeline and there’s no need for chim weighing stuff such as CEREAL and SEEP which are mind you, very time consuming.
But I guess improvements are good, I hope I can continue getting As for science since I always get Bs. And hope that my Math will continue to excel too! :) But is triple science the right choice? Idk lah. Sigh I just feel I’m bad at everything and my results are constantly fluctuating.
Can’t we all just continue with 6 subjects? It’s a pain in the ass to choose subjects. If my results are liddat for 6 subjects, I can’t imagine 8 subjects :O Can die already. And the school is biassed to math and sci, taking up 2/3 of the GPA unfair much?? So it’s prob easy to score A* for all those math/sci geniuses >:(
I bet people reading must be like “Screw you, can’t you be contented with your results?!”
Well the answer is no. Lol. Ok don’t kill me thank you.
I just can’t be contented no matter what.
I see my results very 不爽-_-
Well actually I think I’ve came quite far in terms of academics. Sorry I like to talk about my stupid life stories but whatever. I came here as a pathetic DSA student and only got 248 for my PSLE which is really a bad result compared to the cut off point which was 257. Yeah so I thought I would lag behind be last in class or smth, At least I accomplished something. Ok, this is lame.
Shall just go with history because I will love you history no matter what other people say! Everyone hates history hmph why oh why. So ironic everyone on twitter was like f*ckgeog and now everyone wants to take goegraphy. I didn’t include geography in any of my choices.
All my friends are taking diff combinations from me since everyone loves geography and e.lit.. GAH i still don’t know whether to stick to hist or change to e.lit!!! HOW?!
Somehow accepted that we are all gonna be in different classes and separate. Oh well :(( Really scared I can’t adapt to new people since I’m so quiet and so awkward.

Camwhoring with my niece

Was camwhoring with my niece Chloe on Sunday with the ipad :)
It feels good to have a family member to camwhore with, especially if I don't even talk to my cousins. And I can feel like a shameless bimbo once again.
I think 我在教坏my 4 year old cousin. Tsk.. Knowing how to pose at such a tender age.
And the app used was popbooth, which is only available at the apple store. It's a really fun app because it takes 4 consecutive photos every 3 seconds, which is just like a photobooth. But I didn't include it in my previous app review because it isn't avvailable in the google play market. (BOOOO.)

Warning: Erxin pictures of me and senseless captions coming up ^_^ I didn't bother to edit the photos.


We have beautiful hands!


Random thing.



Trying to look scary. And my wink ;) Nah I was just smiling too hard.




Oh hi we are so cute ^_^



RAWR. Beware of us.


And then Chloe wanted more attention to herself.



And then I tried it. I admit I look retarded in the 4th photo. :(


Ok here's a random picture of my legs and thighs. To make it look skinnier you should just take a further shot of your legs. Just saying lol. And yayyy I have thigh gap.

Cooking tutorial coming up next week or the week after. :)
Random readers from around the world please comment I beg you thank you.

EOYs Review part 2

Ok got back my results and I feel uncontented meh :/

Maybe that's my standard, I just never can feel contented with my results, fml. Ok but I think my results are okay for someone who got only 248 -coughs- for her PSLE.

I was really really nervous and my heart was thumping really fast. And I had a flu which made it worse because I was having a stuffed and runny nose which made me feel uncomfy. I was crossing my fingers half of the time for good luck. Yes, crossing your fingers gives you good luck you should try it! At least it gives me some hope.
1)Chinese
Got 67.5%, was a little bit disappointed because I wanted to get an A SO BADLY. I really wanted an A! I really hope my results can be pulled up but I doubt that's gonna happen :< And somemore the people around me were smartasses getting As so I felt terrible.

2)Math
Was fucking happy because I got an A* for once! 83.5%! Seriously I haven't got an A* in a single subject since I went into secondary school since it was impossible but I'm really happy ok! At first I was like "Did I take the wrong paper?" but then I realised I got an A* YIPEEEEEE. But it can't really pull my suckish CA2/SA1 grades up because I only got a A then POOOO :( But I think that my score should be the top 10 scores in my class? Anyway I still have a very pretty A* in my report book yay.
I think I really made channy proud hooray ^_^ I bet he must be super duper shocked too since I failed 3 quizzes this year and always get low As for my tests OTL Thank you channy for teaching me and make me magical powers to score an A*! Go chan! :) Hope that he can be my math teacher next year (although it's kinda impossible)

 3)History
I got an A in history but it was only a marginal A, like 70% only!
I know 10000000 people are probably gonna feel like bashing me up after I say this but I'M NOT HAPPY WITH MY HIST RESULTS.
Because I felt that it was the easiest paper and I could have done a lot more to get a high A. Plus, I don't think this can pull my overall grade to an A. Oh well I still don't know what I did wrong in my essay wtf only got 8/12. But the SBQ was easy lol because it has really nothing to do with history and just common sense shit. Like how the Japs treated the locals.
And and and the people around my index number got super high As so I thought my results were very bad. However I saw the marks slip for the class and realised that I did quite well heh ^^ But still cannot pull up to an A I'm still very sad :( Sad me is sad.
Ok I bet all the people who got Bs and Cs or even lower feel like killing my now. Please don't kill me.

4)LA
 LA was pretty disappointing because I only got a B, like 65%,  lowest among all the subjects! My comprehension pulled me down I got 15/30 for that FML. And I'm glad that the essay I chionged in 20 mins got me 18/30 which was quite ok ^^ But still I'm not very happy with it:( And there were a few marking mistakes like the teacher gave me 3 extra marks. Of course I didn't bother telling anyone that. -_-

5)Geography
Got 34/50 which is 68% which is a B. Totally FML again lah. If I gotten 1 more mark I would have gotten a glorious A! Meh still thankful for it because I didn't fail my DRQ. But it's one mark more you know! So close. So I was pretty annoyed lol. KILL ME NOW.

6)Science
I was really super highhhh because I got an A bitches, 76% ^_^ Seriously didn't expect it because I thought I did very badly. I was even praying that I wouldn't get a C. I actually thought this was the hardest paper but I was wrong apparently. And my MCQs pulled me down :( I scored the highest for Bio among my 4 sections super surprised lah! And I haven't scored an A in science for any major exam since P6 wtf so you can't imagine how hyper I was! :D And my friends wanted to kill me because before that I was saying that I was scared I failed science.

Conclusion:
I know that I can get my 8 subjects combination already liao ^_^ Hoorayz! Yeah I think it's good that I didn't score any Cs or fail anything if not it would have been disastrous. And I shouldn't compare myself to all these smar tasses since I'm not intellectually-gifted like them. Now another problem arises. Idk which combination to choose omigod But I'm still contented. I just contradicted myself above.

WHY AM I WRITING THIS LIKE AN ESSAY.

Other miscellaneous stuff:
So my friend was really disappointed because she got a C for science. At first when I got my paper back I wanted the express my excitement but I saw her face. She was staring into blank space and in shock or something 无话可说, so I had to hide my happiness (wtf ruin the happy moment lol.) For the rest of the going-through-of-papers, I was super quiet and didn't dare to say anything. Sometimes it's better to keep your mouth shut in front of sad people. And then I asked her what happened and she told me about her results and was super disappointed and shit.
Being the awkward friend I am I just kept quiet because I'm no counselor.
If I said, "It's okay, just work hard next year."
She'll be like WHAT NEXT YEAR IT'S ALREADY DONE
If I said, "At least you tried your best"
She'll be like BUT I STILL DID BADLY
If I said, "Don't worry, your previous assignments can pull your grade up."
She'll be like BUT MY GRADES ARE HARD TO PULL UP
What to do, you ask me?
So the best thing is to keep quiet and keep patting her shoulder._.
I just don't know how to comfort people. I feel that when one is upset, it's best to just keep your mouth shut and just don't say anything. Or else you may make it worse and cause that person to cry more hysterically.
And I feel guilty because I'm such a so-not-supportive friend.

WHAT SUBJECT COMBINATION TO CHOOSE? D: