I feel very unappreciated. No one bothers in my family. I'm really starting to hate my family. My aunty is being really rude to me and being such a bitch, and I already had two bad dreams about her so that may signify that she's fucking evil and I shouldn't trust her anymore. On the other hand, my mum is PMs-ing like crazy and she's invading my life and scolding me 24/7 and getting angry for no right reason. Thanks for scolding me ah, you have no idea what scolding does to me. I feel pathetic that no one appreciates me and my efforts and they'll never know how much I have put in just to please them. Worked so hard for my exams, got rather good results and all I got from my mum was a nod and "good", that's all, end up getting some PMS-y scolding from her for no reason. :(
What the fuck, so all my 3 weeks of non-stop mugging is under appreciated, well fuck you.
Friday, May 10, 2013
Friday, May 3, 2013
Left out
One more paper before freedommm. But i have a really bad feeling about my results and i think i screwed my languages badly. I just know it.
Anyway, still having dumbass friendship problems within my class. Again, that stupid bitch left me out in her outing with her new found friends. Boohoo. Please note my sarcasm. Can't believe that she's my first friend in 3H and now we're so far apart and awkward. I already know she prefers the rest of her new found friends over me, meh. Maybe because i don't go down during recess, but my habit shouldn't affect it..right? I blame my awkwardness to mix around with her new found friends, but she doesn't even bother so why should i? Feel like some extra pig there in their group. My only close friend i can trust is shanice now, sighpie.
Stupid bitch urghhh i hate her. I want to get back with her together but how? And she thinks i'm boring or something, always saying "not free" when i try to arrange stuff with her. "Oh i have a study group", "i'm going to the dentist", "i'm going home with another friend." I'm glad that the CTs have distracted me with all these crap problems that aren't even important. So... The drama continues later.
I HOPE YOU DIE BITCH LOLOL.
Anyway, still having dumbass friendship problems within my class. Again, that stupid bitch left me out in her outing with her new found friends. Boohoo. Please note my sarcasm. Can't believe that she's my first friend in 3H and now we're so far apart and awkward. I already know she prefers the rest of her new found friends over me, meh. Maybe because i don't go down during recess, but my habit shouldn't affect it..right? I blame my awkwardness to mix around with her new found friends, but she doesn't even bother so why should i? Feel like some extra pig there in their group. My only close friend i can trust is shanice now, sighpie.
Stupid bitch urghhh i hate her. I want to get back with her together but how? And she thinks i'm boring or something, always saying "not free" when i try to arrange stuff with her. "Oh i have a study group", "i'm going to the dentist", "i'm going home with another friend." I'm glad that the CTs have distracted me with all these crap problems that aren't even important. So... The drama continues later.
I HOPE YOU DIE BITCH LOLOL.
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Stress
Just got a reality check. Not really in a mood to blog about my birthday.
Anyway tried revising for physics today. Planned to finish the whole thing but i really couldn't absorb anything. Started doing the mock paper and realised i was stumped at half of the questions. Later found out i lost two practical worksheets and panicked like mad. Suddenly brokedown and cried. Really i'm lost in the world of physics. Regret not studying earlier and i thought i could get it. But really, i couldn't.
Skipped dinner to revise for physics and tried to calm myself down. Finally realised im running out of time. With all those other distractions, choir practices, i'm really panicky. Feel like crying whenever i can't do anything wtf.
Ok bye
Anyway tried revising for physics today. Planned to finish the whole thing but i really couldn't absorb anything. Started doing the mock paper and realised i was stumped at half of the questions. Later found out i lost two practical worksheets and panicked like mad. Suddenly brokedown and cried. Really i'm lost in the world of physics. Regret not studying earlier and i thought i could get it. But really, i couldn't.
Skipped dinner to revise for physics and tried to calm myself down. Finally realised im running out of time. With all those other distractions, choir practices, i'm really panicky. Feel like crying whenever i can't do anything wtf.
Ok bye
Friday, April 12, 2013
Pre birthday.
So.. less than 3 hours to my birthday.. Nope, I think it's 12 hours. Cox I was born at 11am or smth like that lol *_*
Anyway, today was pretty depressing-yet-happy. Firstly, skipped breakfast just to study *_* And then was hoping my old secondary school friends would at least remember and do smth for me, but no, unfortunately. A bit disappointed since I was the one who normally organises surprises for my clique. SO apparently no one cares now. GREAT. Now i know giving is not all about returns, but when I saw C today before school, I think she had absolutely no clue that tmr was my birthday, and continued chatting as if nothing happened. Great job i clap for you lol.
Basically I'm taken for granted again, quite used to it already since I have been feeling like that since the beginning of this year. Don't really have anyone to go to since I don't think anyone will understand. Only yonglin and alyssa remembered tmr was my birthday thank you dear.
I don't really need any gifts from my friends, all I am asking for is a little handwritten card, a simple greeting, something to symbolise that they actually take notice of me and don't treat me as junk. Don't really like my close 3H clique since we are all so divided and hardly talk, it's getting so awkward and I hate it. The only thing I look forward to in school is to go home where I can study wtf and I can spend time with my true best friend called the laptop.
Not expecting birthday wishes tmr I think they all probably forgot. *_* Learnt not to have too high expectations.
Had to stayback today for choir admin matters and turns out I can't skip the CIP or else I have to find my own to do or do the one that is 2 DAYS BEFORE CT NO THANKS. There goes 3 hours of my studying time. Sighpie.
Anyway, today was pretty depressing-yet-happy. Firstly, skipped breakfast just to study *_* And then was hoping my old secondary school friends would at least remember and do smth for me, but no, unfortunately. A bit disappointed since I was the one who normally organises surprises for my clique. SO apparently no one cares now. GREAT. Now i know giving is not all about returns, but when I saw C today before school, I think she had absolutely no clue that tmr was my birthday, and continued chatting as if nothing happened. Great job i clap for you lol.
Basically I'm taken for granted again, quite used to it already since I have been feeling like that since the beginning of this year. Don't really have anyone to go to since I don't think anyone will understand. Only yonglin and alyssa remembered tmr was my birthday thank you dear.
I don't really need any gifts from my friends, all I am asking for is a little handwritten card, a simple greeting, something to symbolise that they actually take notice of me and don't treat me as junk. Don't really like my close 3H clique since we are all so divided and hardly talk, it's getting so awkward and I hate it. The only thing I look forward to in school is to go home where I can study wtf and I can spend time with my true best friend called the laptop.
Not expecting birthday wishes tmr I think they all probably forgot. *_* Learnt not to have too high expectations.
Had to stayback today for choir admin matters and turns out I can't skip the CIP or else I have to find my own to do or do the one that is 2 DAYS BEFORE CT NO THANKS. There goes 3 hours of my studying time. Sighpie.
Saturday, April 6, 2013
No one cares.
So my mum wanted me to order a birthday cake and then she asked me to order from some shops near my place. Problem is, I've been ordering stupid cakes near my house since I was young and I'm extremely bored of it. So I told her I wanted to go to this place in Thomson to order cakes. And then my mum started giving me this lecture about how troublesome it is to get a cake there and I should just go get a over-the-counter cake at bengawan solo.
Btw, I'm terribly sick and tired of this outlets up till now I don't want to buy anything there anymore. I just want a different birthday cake now, understand? It only happens once a year, thus I really must celebrate it well. And then my mum scolded me and said next time she'll just order one of these cheap cakes and I got damn pissed. And then she even restricted my choices. When I said chocolate: "TOO SWEET", when I siad durian: "SOME PEOPLE DON'T LIKE DURIANS IN OUR FAMILY." Well I really really want a durian cake and then she just told me to buy a blackforest one. Hello isn't it my birthday? I feel like no one understands me. It's my birthday, just let me have it my way for once?
You know what, I don't think I even want to celebrate my birthday anymore. WHo cares about my stupid birthday anyway? NO ONE. Yeah no one even cares if I die. I'm in no mood for my birthday and this year has been a really bad year. I don't even have time for my birthday cox of the CTs? What birthday? I bet none of my friends even care about me or even give a shit about me. I'm always the dumb little girl in their eyes who is uncool. I'm always treated as the second option, obviously. Everything is crashing down, my results, my friendships, my emotions, all crumbling down into dust. What's happened to me? Seriously I used to be so happy last year, and now I cry almost every week.
Just screw everything. I think I'm better off dead.
Btw, I'm terribly sick and tired of this outlets up till now I don't want to buy anything there anymore. I just want a different birthday cake now, understand? It only happens once a year, thus I really must celebrate it well. And then my mum scolded me and said next time she'll just order one of these cheap cakes and I got damn pissed. And then she even restricted my choices. When I said chocolate: "TOO SWEET", when I siad durian: "SOME PEOPLE DON'T LIKE DURIANS IN OUR FAMILY." Well I really really want a durian cake and then she just told me to buy a blackforest one. Hello isn't it my birthday? I feel like no one understands me. It's my birthday, just let me have it my way for once?
You know what, I don't think I even want to celebrate my birthday anymore. WHo cares about my stupid birthday anyway? NO ONE. Yeah no one even cares if I die. I'm in no mood for my birthday and this year has been a really bad year. I don't even have time for my birthday cox of the CTs? What birthday? I bet none of my friends even care about me or even give a shit about me. I'm always the dumb little girl in their eyes who is uncool. I'm always treated as the second option, obviously. Everything is crashing down, my results, my friendships, my emotions, all crumbling down into dust. What's happened to me? Seriously I used to be so happy last year, and now I cry almost every week.
Just screw everything. I think I'm better off dead.
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Progress!!!
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Current weight. Aim to go below 43 and I'll be damn happy.
Ok bye. Took me a lot of effort to resist snacks and quite happy my efforts paid off. Have been eating snack bars/ wholegrain biscuits/ vegan food for lunch for the week. -_-
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
A little self reflection
Today was a bad day. It was April Fools but it's a pity I didn't bother to prepare anything :( Oh and tried to switch classes with 3L but I missed it cox I was in the toilet HAHAH. And then we tried to call Ms LIm "Mummy" but apparently she didn't hear as properly :( Didn't get pranked also! Ohmygod my life is so boring.
And then choir practice was really horrible. Cox today we went to the audi to sing today. Ends up we screwed up badly for one of the songs and then we gave up. Well not really, we still continued but you get what I mean.
Later the conductor gave us a lecture on how we shouldn't give up and yada yada. She asked how many people continued fighting on despite the setback and of course the whole choir raised their hand -_-To be honest, I kind of "broke down", I didn't stop singing, but my voice kind of grew softer. However I was really too embarrassed to say it out. Of course I'll only dare to write it here.
And then she started asking if we should have re auditions again and then I OBVIOUSLY DID NOT SUPPORT LAH. I mean everyone in the SYF choir has already worked hard to pass the auditions, and since everyone has spent their time and effort going for choir pracs, why should we destroy someone's wish of being on stage? And I think it's extremely ridiculous to take someone out of a competition LESS THAN A WEEK BEFORE THE ACTUAL COMPETITION. I mean you've worked your asses off for months and then you suddenly receive the news that you're not suitable for the competition? I'll obviously be damn pissed and ask them to go screw themselves *_* Sorry I'm being really mean but I really find this logic unreasonable.
For me, I feel that happiness is equals to being able to perform on SYF. If YOU did your best, you shouldn't care about how others people did. As long as you put in your everything, I think that is enough already, I'll be able to walk off stage happily. But being able to perform in SYF is a good thing already lorh. SEE SEE SEE I TOLD YOU THE CHANGING OF RULES DIDN'T MAKE SENSE, IT'S STILL THE SAME.
We should be nice and let everyone on stage! :D ALthough it's not good for the whole choir, at least everyone is happy that they get a chance to participate!
Something that one of the seniors said really got me thinking, "You're fighting hard enough, but you're fighting hard to get a place in SYF, not fighting to perform well for the choir."
I really think that's true, cox I'm doing that. During the mini reauditions, I always seriously giving my all and pushing myself as much as possible, all because I wanted a place for SYF. Of course, it's human nature. As humans, we are all selfish. Imagine there are 30 people in the room and only 24 buns left, of course everyone will fight for it. Who wants to sacrifice themselves for the good of others? No way. Yeah, so I guess fear is the only way to push us and make us go faster I guess :P So I'm gonna use this fear to push myself even more *_*
3 more practices to SYF, I hope it goes well.
PS: I'm getting back chinese papers tmr, wish me luck okay I think I'm gonna cry in school tmr. I pray so badly that I won't fail after that scare months ago.
Also, my chinese tutor just gave birth wtf, on the same day as xiaxue. So she won't be able to give me tution for a month. I guess that can be a good thing because I want to see if I still can cope without her, cox honestly she hasn't really been putting in much effort. I guess after a certain period of time people just slack off thinking you're ok with it?
And then choir practice was really horrible. Cox today we went to the audi to sing today. Ends up we screwed up badly for one of the songs and then we gave up. Well not really, we still continued but you get what I mean.
Later the conductor gave us a lecture on how we shouldn't give up and yada yada. She asked how many people continued fighting on despite the setback and of course the whole choir raised their hand -_-To be honest, I kind of "broke down", I didn't stop singing, but my voice kind of grew softer. However I was really too embarrassed to say it out. Of course I'll only dare to write it here.
And then she started asking if we should have re auditions again and then I OBVIOUSLY DID NOT SUPPORT LAH. I mean everyone in the SYF choir has already worked hard to pass the auditions, and since everyone has spent their time and effort going for choir pracs, why should we destroy someone's wish of being on stage? And I think it's extremely ridiculous to take someone out of a competition LESS THAN A WEEK BEFORE THE ACTUAL COMPETITION. I mean you've worked your asses off for months and then you suddenly receive the news that you're not suitable for the competition? I'll obviously be damn pissed and ask them to go screw themselves *_* Sorry I'm being really mean but I really find this logic unreasonable.
For me, I feel that happiness is equals to being able to perform on SYF. If YOU did your best, you shouldn't care about how others people did. As long as you put in your everything, I think that is enough already, I'll be able to walk off stage happily. But being able to perform in SYF is a good thing already lorh. SEE SEE SEE I TOLD YOU THE CHANGING OF RULES DIDN'T MAKE SENSE, IT'S STILL THE SAME.
We should be nice and let everyone on stage! :D ALthough it's not good for the whole choir, at least everyone is happy that they get a chance to participate!
Something that one of the seniors said really got me thinking, "You're fighting hard enough, but you're fighting hard to get a place in SYF, not fighting to perform well for the choir."
I really think that's true, cox I'm doing that. During the mini reauditions, I always seriously giving my all and pushing myself as much as possible, all because I wanted a place for SYF. Of course, it's human nature. As humans, we are all selfish. Imagine there are 30 people in the room and only 24 buns left, of course everyone will fight for it. Who wants to sacrifice themselves for the good of others? No way. Yeah, so I guess fear is the only way to push us and make us go faster I guess :P So I'm gonna use this fear to push myself even more *_*
3 more practices to SYF, I hope it goes well.
PS: I'm getting back chinese papers tmr, wish me luck okay I think I'm gonna cry in school tmr. I pray so badly that I won't fail after that scare months ago.
Also, my chinese tutor just gave birth wtf, on the same day as xiaxue. So she won't be able to give me tution for a month. I guess that can be a good thing because I want to see if I still can cope without her, cox honestly she hasn't really been putting in much effort. I guess after a certain period of time people just slack off thinking you're ok with it?
Monday, March 18, 2013
Shall summarise today.
Choir practice.
PT was totally horrible cox I don't know what's wrong with my body but for the first time in don't-know-how-many-months I kena-ed the punishment fml. I think cox I felt like puking and ran 40 minutes right after eating brekkie -_-
Was really torturous singing for 3 hours and then had lunch :D Had apple juice and my cereal bar.
And then the rest was pretty slack cox we all had to wait outside for the SH choir so we played ball games. Had this masterclass for only 1 hour which was really really short.
Later had dress fitting and then I decided I must slim down to make my waste look more prominent :D And The dress was lose cox my boobs are damn small hahaha seriously my bust is less than 32 inches or smth wtf.
And then later at night my mum said I have to gain weight until 46kg fml. Ok I'm about the approach a really awkward topic so mind me. I haven't got my first period yet. Yeah, when everyone gets their period at 12/13 I HAVEN'T GOT MINE YET WTF. The nurses at the HPB during health check up warned me about it and told me that I needed to go for a referral but they have never gotten back to me heng ah.
So today my mum went back from the doctor's checkup and she said that I'm not having my period cox i'm underweight (She checked with the doctor) She made me calculate my bmi which was around 18. Actually the BMI system is for adults lor, not teens. Used another website to calculate my BMI and it's perfectly fine. If I'm underweight, that means confirm 50% of people are underweight right? Since almost everyone is skinnier than me :P But I hope I get it soon! God please let my period come I pray I don't care about the cramps. I mean it's really awkward when your girlfriends are discussing about how horrendous periods are and then you just sit there awkwardly nodding and smiling :( And I'm scared next time I can't conceive WTF THAT WOULD BE THEM SAD.
So she said I must gain weight or else I won't get it and I may have to see a gynaecologist by the end of this year :( Save me please I don't want anyone looking up my disgusting vagina that's so wrong. And then if I still don't get it I must draw blood to examine my homorones wtfwtf so kuazhang right. Idk lah.
Choir practice.
PT was totally horrible cox I don't know what's wrong with my body but for the first time in don't-know-how-many-months I kena-ed the punishment fml. I think cox I felt like puking and ran 40 minutes right after eating brekkie -_-
Was really torturous singing for 3 hours and then had lunch :D Had apple juice and my cereal bar.
And then the rest was pretty slack cox we all had to wait outside for the SH choir so we played ball games. Had this masterclass for only 1 hour which was really really short.
Later had dress fitting and then I decided I must slim down to make my waste look more prominent :D And The dress was lose cox my boobs are damn small hahaha seriously my bust is less than 32 inches or smth wtf.
And then later at night my mum said I have to gain weight until 46kg fml. Ok I'm about the approach a really awkward topic so mind me. I haven't got my first period yet. Yeah, when everyone gets their period at 12/13 I HAVEN'T GOT MINE YET WTF. The nurses at the HPB during health check up warned me about it and told me that I needed to go for a referral but they have never gotten back to me heng ah.
So today my mum went back from the doctor's checkup and she said that I'm not having my period cox i'm underweight (She checked with the doctor) She made me calculate my bmi which was around 18. Actually the BMI system is for adults lor, not teens. Used another website to calculate my BMI and it's perfectly fine. If I'm underweight, that means confirm 50% of people are underweight right? Since almost everyone is skinnier than me :P But I hope I get it soon! God please let my period come I pray I don't care about the cramps. I mean it's really awkward when your girlfriends are discussing about how horrendous periods are and then you just sit there awkwardly nodding and smiling :( And I'm scared next time I can't conceive WTF THAT WOULD BE THEM SAD.
So she said I must gain weight or else I won't get it and I may have to see a gynaecologist by the end of this year :( Save me please I don't want anyone looking up my disgusting vagina that's so wrong. And then if I still don't get it I must draw blood to examine my homorones wtfwtf so kuazhang right. Idk lah.
Friday, March 15, 2013
Weight loss journey (part 2)
It's almost been a month.. Not really making progress but getting the hang of it.
Now I'm 43.8kg. At least now I'm below 44. But I really wanna go to 42 :( my weight when I was sec 2.
Well although it's only about 2kg of weight loss at least I lost 4% of my body weight? (Yay.)
But I'm really sad now cox yesterday I ate with the girls at Thai Express and really ate alot :( Oh no. And somemore I didn't feel full when all of them were full. Obviously my appetite is quite screwed.
Cannot eat carbs anymore. Cut down my carbs by a lot and now for dinner I eat less than 3 spoons of rice. Oh man, now it's even harder to lose weight during the holidays cox obviously I have to cut down on meals without my mum noticing.. Or else she'll just slaughter me for dieting.
PLAN: Eat as less as possible during choir camp. Shall eat a cereal bar for lunch with fruit only since no one will really monitor me outside school lol *_* Then I won't be able to snack cox there's choir. Ok I can do it.
Shall eat 饭菜 for the rest of the days for lunch and only eat broccoli, long beans and egg. YAY.
Let's hope I can be 42kg by the end of April :)) I'm going for a medical check up on 26 March so must lose weight by then *_*
Have been feeling damn cranky these days. Perhaps it's the lack of food. I got quite pissed whenever someone gives me more food. Really ruins my diet plan although I know they mean well and I keep thinking their trying to ruin my plan, i know I'm mad. Also, I get especially angry when people remark "YOU EAT SO LITTLE AH?" or "YOU ON DIET AH?" So what, like it's your business? I hate people poking into my food affairs and making comments on what I eat. It's rude. And then when I felt like I ate a lot I would be super moody at myself. Going crazy. I always get angry on Saturday cox it's my aunt's tuition. Her tuition starts at 5pm ends fucking late at 8pm. She thinks I'm okay with eating late so I got damn pissed. I mean it's a good thing that I get to skip meals but the problem is I have to eat dinz after that so that means I'll have bloating wtf. SO yeah, I think dieting is ruining my mental health. And no, I have no mental disorders, perfectly fine.
I think I really look damn fat. I hate my legs and my stomach. My stomach is still as flabby as ever and I need a flat tummy. I will continue to lose weight untio I get a flat tummy plus I reach my 42kg goal. I really hate my legs. I'm a pear shaped body so I have wider hips = thicker thighs = fatter legs. Sigh.
Shall do weight loss tips until I lose weight successfully HAHA.
And I'm glad I passed the audits :) But the comm said it was temporary so the conductor has the right to take us out WTF. He said we can't be too happy unless we thought we performed our best during the auditions. And then he kind of contradicted himself by saying that the people who didn't pass shouldn't feel bad -_- So serious for what.
It's like giving us a cake. And then this stupid guy says that although you will have a chance to eat the cake, the cake may just splat on your face or they may just take your cake away -_- Ok someone give me a good analogy.
And I'm really not coping well with my school. I failed my Chinese test, my LA is terrible, my physics and Bio are okay, my chem is one of the lowest in class :( I just can't stand the disappointment when I recieve my results. Why do I score lower than those who studied only the day before? I really put in a lot of effort.
Cried don't know how many times this year. Sigh.
Now I'm 43.8kg. At least now I'm below 44. But I really wanna go to 42 :( my weight when I was sec 2.
Well although it's only about 2kg of weight loss at least I lost 4% of my body weight? (Yay.)
But I'm really sad now cox yesterday I ate with the girls at Thai Express and really ate alot :( Oh no. And somemore I didn't feel full when all of them were full. Obviously my appetite is quite screwed.
Cannot eat carbs anymore. Cut down my carbs by a lot and now for dinner I eat less than 3 spoons of rice. Oh man, now it's even harder to lose weight during the holidays cox obviously I have to cut down on meals without my mum noticing.. Or else she'll just slaughter me for dieting.
PLAN: Eat as less as possible during choir camp. Shall eat a cereal bar for lunch with fruit only since no one will really monitor me outside school lol *_* Then I won't be able to snack cox there's choir. Ok I can do it.
Shall eat 饭菜 for the rest of the days for lunch and only eat broccoli, long beans and egg. YAY.
Let's hope I can be 42kg by the end of April :)) I'm going for a medical check up on 26 March so must lose weight by then *_*
Have been feeling damn cranky these days. Perhaps it's the lack of food. I got quite pissed whenever someone gives me more food. Really ruins my diet plan although I know they mean well and I keep thinking their trying to ruin my plan, i know I'm mad. Also, I get especially angry when people remark "YOU EAT SO LITTLE AH?" or "YOU ON DIET AH?" So what, like it's your business? I hate people poking into my food affairs and making comments on what I eat. It's rude. And then when I felt like I ate a lot I would be super moody at myself. Going crazy. I always get angry on Saturday cox it's my aunt's tuition. Her tuition starts at 5pm ends fucking late at 8pm. She thinks I'm okay with eating late so I got damn pissed. I mean it's a good thing that I get to skip meals but the problem is I have to eat dinz after that so that means I'll have bloating wtf. SO yeah, I think dieting is ruining my mental health. And no, I have no mental disorders, perfectly fine.
I think I really look damn fat. I hate my legs and my stomach. My stomach is still as flabby as ever and I need a flat tummy. I will continue to lose weight untio I get a flat tummy plus I reach my 42kg goal. I really hate my legs. I'm a pear shaped body so I have wider hips = thicker thighs = fatter legs. Sigh.
Shall do weight loss tips until I lose weight successfully HAHA.
And I'm glad I passed the audits :) But the comm said it was temporary so the conductor has the right to take us out WTF. He said we can't be too happy unless we thought we performed our best during the auditions. And then he kind of contradicted himself by saying that the people who didn't pass shouldn't feel bad -_- So serious for what.
It's like giving us a cake. And then this stupid guy says that although you will have a chance to eat the cake, the cake may just splat on your face or they may just take your cake away -_- Ok someone give me a good analogy.
And I'm really not coping well with my school. I failed my Chinese test, my LA is terrible, my physics and Bio are okay, my chem is one of the lowest in class :( I just can't stand the disappointment when I recieve my results. Why do I score lower than those who studied only the day before? I really put in a lot of effort.
Cried don't know how many times this year. Sigh.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Weight loss journey (1)
You may think "Oh no not another weight loss blogpost again where this delusional fat idiot fails to lose weigh again -rolls eyes- "
STOOOOP.
I hope this will be the last and final attempt to lose weight.
I feel like a fatass now ; Suddenly everyone who was damn fat lost weight... And I'm like "WOAH WHAT HAPPENED"
I really admire people who have the determination to lose weight *_*
For now, I'll try eating as little carbs as possible, only eating fruits for snacks, no fried food, no putting gravy on sauce (fml i'll miss my curry)
Current weight: 45.7kg or 100.7 pounds FML I'M SO FAT
Goal weight: 42kg or 92 pounds.
Hopefully it'll take 6 weeks? :)
Friday, February 8, 2013
Skinny.
Random pictures to inspire me to get skinny:
My "skinny" idol:
Cheesie! (cheeserland.com)
She's so skinny which makes her legs so long omg jealous *_* And she's only 158cm which means if I slim down I can be her size too cox I'm around her height!
Btw fml I have to go to my gran's house to help her prepare steamboat .__. 4 hours of my studying time will be gone. I was forced by my stupid aunty after she told me that my gran was getting old and what not GAH WHY AM I SO STUPID.
I hope you die.
I FUCKING HATE MY MUM.
SHE'S FUCKING UNREASONABLE. I HOPE SHE BECOMES MUTE SO SHE CAN SHIT HER TRAP AND DIES IN A HOLE.
EVEN IF SHE DOESN'T DIE, I'M GONNA SEND HER TO AN OLD FOLK'S HOME TO LET HER ROT TO DEATH THERE. IT'S HER RETRIBUTION FOR FUCKING HURTING MY FEELINGS.
Doesn't she ever consider how her harsh words can really make people break down and cry? Just a sentence can make me down and I feel like dying again
You make me wanna die.
If I left the world, no one would fucking care about me. Especially my mum.
No one cares.
When I was crying, have you ever comforted me? No, instead you choose to ignore me. Sometimes you scold me because you think I'm just making a big fuss of small things. You think that I'm being a little pussy, crying so easily. Sometimes you even MAKE FUN of me for crying. Never once for the last year you have ever gave me your support, you never really cared about me and understand me. All you care about is my brother, and you never did give your attention to me. I was expected to always give way to my brother just because he's "special", and I was always left out, neglected, lonely, no one to talk to except my friends.
FUCK YOU.
Not that she beats me or anything, but she's really causing my emotional breakdowns and abusing me mentally. Did you know that when I cry, 90% is because of family matters? DO you know how much happier I would have been without you?
You called me stupid today. FOR NOT EATING MY FISH OIL. I really feel like crying now. Do I really look like a little piece of shit to you?
If you see my self-cutting/getting into depression one day, you know why.
SHE'S FUCKING UNREASONABLE. I HOPE SHE BECOMES MUTE SO SHE CAN SHIT HER TRAP AND DIES IN A HOLE.
EVEN IF SHE DOESN'T DIE, I'M GONNA SEND HER TO AN OLD FOLK'S HOME TO LET HER ROT TO DEATH THERE. IT'S HER RETRIBUTION FOR FUCKING HURTING MY FEELINGS.
Doesn't she ever consider how her harsh words can really make people break down and cry? Just a sentence can make me down and I feel like dying again
You make me wanna die.
If I left the world, no one would fucking care about me. Especially my mum.
No one cares.
When I was crying, have you ever comforted me? No, instead you choose to ignore me. Sometimes you scold me because you think I'm just making a big fuss of small things. You think that I'm being a little pussy, crying so easily. Sometimes you even MAKE FUN of me for crying. Never once for the last year you have ever gave me your support, you never really cared about me and understand me. All you care about is my brother, and you never did give your attention to me. I was expected to always give way to my brother just because he's "special", and I was always left out, neglected, lonely, no one to talk to except my friends.
FUCK YOU.
Not that she beats me or anything, but she's really causing my emotional breakdowns and abusing me mentally. Did you know that when I cry, 90% is because of family matters? DO you know how much happier I would have been without you?
You called me stupid today. FOR NOT EATING MY FISH OIL. I really feel like crying now. Do I really look like a little piece of shit to you?
If you see my self-cutting/getting into depression one day, you know why.
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Faking smiles.
Is it just me or 2013 is getting worse by the day?
Every week is fucking horrible. Seriously. There can't be a day where I don't feel upset/feel like crying. Everyday, something always disappoints me and lets me down, someone criticizes me, someone scolds me, someone ignores me; it's a never ending whirlwind of negative emotions.
I just feel that it really isn't my fault and you all have to make life difficult for me, not caring if it hurts me or not.
Stupid troubles faced now : SYF, keeping up with studies, friendship problems, stress management problems, family relationships.
I feel that no one really cares about me. I don't know why but I never really felt the true meaning of happiness this year so far.
I feel like I don't exist in their world and treat me as an invisible person.
I feel that everyone communicates with me only because it's necessary.
Like yesterday, my tuition ended at 7.40pm and I wanted to go home for dinner. However apparently they thought I was eating on my own so they didn't buy any dinner for me. They offered to buy dinner for me and then I asked what's there to eat. My mum shouted at me irritatingly and said she was trying to help me but I was wasting time cox I should now what food choices there are. I just hung up.
Ended up eating tauhuay for dinner and felt like crying when walking home (almost, I didn't cry). How could they forget about me, and they didn't even show a hint of remorse and thought that I was in the wrong.
And today I spent $3 on photocopying the stupid poster for bio. And then my mum scolded me, saying I was stupid for not bringing the hard copy and said I could have saved $1.
SERIOUSLY, IS $1 THAT FUCKING IMPORTANT TO YOU?!
And then she gave a whole lecture about how I waste money and told me that we aren't so rich and whatever. Yes as I'm typing I feel like crying.
Is $1 really more important than your daughter?
Fine, let me give you your stupid dollar back and I'll just leave this home, okay? Happy? No one else to waste your money, no one else to irritate/bother you.
Everyday I feel the lump in my throat (when I'm about to cry) and swallow it, because I tell myself that I won't be such a pussy. EVERY FUCKING DAY. I hold back my tears, try to act as if it didn't affect me.
Can't wait to leave this screwed up place when I'm older.
I don't want to live in this kind of misery. Just let me die. I don't see any point of living, crying everyday, being let down.
Every week is fucking horrible. Seriously. There can't be a day where I don't feel upset/feel like crying. Everyday, something always disappoints me and lets me down, someone criticizes me, someone scolds me, someone ignores me; it's a never ending whirlwind of negative emotions.
I just feel that it really isn't my fault and you all have to make life difficult for me, not caring if it hurts me or not.
Stupid troubles faced now : SYF, keeping up with studies, friendship problems, stress management problems, family relationships.
I feel that no one really cares about me. I don't know why but I never really felt the true meaning of happiness this year so far.
I feel like I don't exist in their world and treat me as an invisible person.
I feel that everyone communicates with me only because it's necessary.
Like yesterday, my tuition ended at 7.40pm and I wanted to go home for dinner. However apparently they thought I was eating on my own so they didn't buy any dinner for me. They offered to buy dinner for me and then I asked what's there to eat. My mum shouted at me irritatingly and said she was trying to help me but I was wasting time cox I should now what food choices there are. I just hung up.
Ended up eating tauhuay for dinner and felt like crying when walking home (almost, I didn't cry). How could they forget about me, and they didn't even show a hint of remorse and thought that I was in the wrong.
And today I spent $3 on photocopying the stupid poster for bio. And then my mum scolded me, saying I was stupid for not bringing the hard copy and said I could have saved $1.
SERIOUSLY, IS $1 THAT FUCKING IMPORTANT TO YOU?!
And then she gave a whole lecture about how I waste money and told me that we aren't so rich and whatever. Yes as I'm typing I feel like crying.
Is $1 really more important than your daughter?
Fine, let me give you your stupid dollar back and I'll just leave this home, okay? Happy? No one else to waste your money, no one else to irritate/bother you.
Everyday I feel the lump in my throat (when I'm about to cry) and swallow it, because I tell myself that I won't be such a pussy. EVERY FUCKING DAY. I hold back my tears, try to act as if it didn't affect me.
Can't wait to leave this screwed up place when I'm older.
I don't want to live in this kind of misery. Just let me die. I don't see any point of living, crying everyday, being let down.
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Troubles.
This week has been a horrible one. Because I almost cried in school on friday and today really made me damn worried.
Things to worry about:
1) Frickin chinese spelling with 35 words fml. I have 3 days to learn all of them
2) Chem pop quiz (not really worried about this but still)
3) FUCKING CHOIR AUDITIONS.
I'm particularly worried about number 3. Because I just learnt on Friday that we had to memorise the score by Monday. I don't know how anyone knows it, I've never heard of this news wtf. Maybe I was daydreaming in choir or smth but I SWEAR I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW ABOUT IT. GRR PANICKING NOW. Particularly because I forgot the tune and I can't play the notes on my virtual piano because I have no music background and I can't even play the chords/major.minor scales what not fuck fuck fuck.
I am in the midst of memorising it, but I'm really scared. My voice is still as horrid as ever (yes I'm serious idea why I even got into choir with my shit voice) I'm terrified of the high notes cox no matter how much i try, I just can't do it! In practices it sounds ok but if I hear myself sing it just sounds like a pig being slaughtered/a dog trying to be a cat LOL. OK NO TIME FOR JOKES. And I think it's quite ridiculous to give up on my academics just for choir. Ok I'm being like some bitch right now but it's the truth! I don't wanna fail my chinese spelling just because I was wasting time trying to memorise the stupid score.
My academic results are extremely important to me. On friday I recieved a "B" grade for my math assignment and I was bloody pissed with the math teacher. I know it's my fault for getting a B, but she only gave us one day to do the fucking assignment, ugh and her teaching sucks. Getting this B, which is the first grade i recieved this year, is just a really big blow to me. Since Math takes up about 33% of my overall grade, I'm seriously worrried cox I really don't understand what the damn teacher is talking about and she annoys the crap out of me. During Bio I was also very confused so I was just so frustrated that I almost cried in class. I cry very easily when I'm faced with too much stress *__* What is wrong with me? 2013 has been a horrendous year so far. I really hate my life. I'm terrified that I can't cope with the 8 subjects + CCA this year. Both of them are clashing and I am faced with no choice fml.
Ok bye I don't wanna continue anymore. I have been in a bad mood for the past few days (although I don't look like I am.)
Things to worry about:
1) Frickin chinese spelling with 35 words fml. I have 3 days to learn all of them
2) Chem pop quiz (not really worried about this but still)
3) FUCKING CHOIR AUDITIONS.
I'm particularly worried about number 3. Because I just learnt on Friday that we had to memorise the score by Monday. I don't know how anyone knows it, I've never heard of this news wtf. Maybe I was daydreaming in choir or smth but I SWEAR I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW ABOUT IT. GRR PANICKING NOW. Particularly because I forgot the tune and I can't play the notes on my virtual piano because I have no music background and I can't even play the chords/major.minor scales what not fuck fuck fuck.
I am in the midst of memorising it, but I'm really scared. My voice is still as horrid as ever (yes I'm serious idea why I even got into choir with my shit voice) I'm terrified of the high notes cox no matter how much i try, I just can't do it! In practices it sounds ok but if I hear myself sing it just sounds like a pig being slaughtered/a dog trying to be a cat LOL. OK NO TIME FOR JOKES. And I think it's quite ridiculous to give up on my academics just for choir. Ok I'm being like some bitch right now but it's the truth! I don't wanna fail my chinese spelling just because I was wasting time trying to memorise the stupid score.
My academic results are extremely important to me. On friday I recieved a "B" grade for my math assignment and I was bloody pissed with the math teacher. I know it's my fault for getting a B, but she only gave us one day to do the fucking assignment, ugh and her teaching sucks. Getting this B, which is the first grade i recieved this year, is just a really big blow to me. Since Math takes up about 33% of my overall grade, I'm seriously worrried cox I really don't understand what the damn teacher is talking about and she annoys the crap out of me. During Bio I was also very confused so I was just so frustrated that I almost cried in class. I cry very easily when I'm faced with too much stress *__* What is wrong with me? 2013 has been a horrendous year so far. I really hate my life. I'm terrified that I can't cope with the 8 subjects + CCA this year. Both of them are clashing and I am faced with no choice fml.
Ok bye I don't wanna continue anymore. I have been in a bad mood for the past few days (although I don't look like I am.)
Saturday, January 12, 2013
I Got A Boy by SNSD - K-pop review
In case you were living in a cave, SNSD's new single "I Got A Boy" was released on 1st Jan 2013! :) Has been really long since their last comeback in Oct 2011! So I was pretty excited about it since I saw all the teasers and stuff.
To be honest, I was really confused and did not ship the song when I first heard it.
Cox I had no idea what it was talking about, there were 3 different completely tunes in the song, I don't get the meaning of the boy inside the video, I DON'T GET ANYTHING.
And then I had to watch it at least 5 times to get the song. But I still don't get the meaning of the song.
But who cares anyway I don't really get the meaning of 90% of k-pop songs, because it is supposed to be like that. You know, don't expect a meaningful song with sentimental lyrics in the k-pop world.. Nah not gonna happen. Only minority of the songs are actually meaningful.
Found the meaning of the song online:
WHAT? Still don't get it but it'd okay ^_^
I love SNSD's costumes and they look so funky and to the tomboy-ish side. Kind of reminds me of f(x), the rock/punk style.
They look at a phone. A boy just texted them
So there's this rap by Sooyoung and Yuri. "AYO GG"
I thought it was kind of redundant, but fine it's still cute. They are acting very badass and stuff lol.
And then they put on their caps and Tiffany the gangsta comes up saying
"HEEEEERE COMES TROUBLE!"
And there's this awkward "AWHHHH" -_- Sounds like the sound you give when you finish pooping WTF. Ignore me.
Why do they have to wear contacts?! I think their natural eye colour is perfect! Why do you need lenses? Sorry I just don't like them wearing lenses it makes them look weird. It made f(x) weird too.
As an honest sone for 2 years I must say that the lenses look totally unnatural on them SORRY NOT SORRY, And you know what, I absolutely can't stand seohyun wearing eye enlarging lenses which makes her look like some big eyed person .__.
My favourite dance move:
The dubstep-ish part :)
Now I'm gonna talk about their hair. Sunny and Hyoyeon caught my attention the most:
First thing when I saw Sunny's hair : TOP. I always refer TOP to the "green-haired-guy" since I can't differentiate the guys in any guy group LOL, so I immediately thought of that.
Is it just me or Sunny's hair always reminds me of someone -_- Her purple hair reminds me of xiaxue, a singaporean blogger (;
Hyoyeon's hair looks like a paddlepop posicle. LOVE. I WANT HAIR LIKE THAT.
And I must say, their teaser pictures are REALLY GOOD. All of them look really gorgeous. I also like their new concept of a wild style, something that is different from their previous comebacks! Their outfits are okay too but I don't think a normal people could pull it off - outrageous prints, crop tops, sexy outfits.
Anyway, I still super love this new song although it's a little flawed. I must say that they look is pretty and perfect as ever! Their bodies are omg *_*
My rate: 1000000000/10 (Yes this is coming from a SONE so please understand.)
Fine, my unbiased rate: 8.5/10! <3
To be honest, I was really confused and did not ship the song when I first heard it.
Cox I had no idea what it was talking about, there were 3 different completely tunes in the song, I don't get the meaning of the boy inside the video, I DON'T GET ANYTHING.
And then I had to watch it at least 5 times to get the song. But I still don't get the meaning of the song.
But who cares anyway I don't really get the meaning of 90% of k-pop songs, because it is supposed to be like that. You know, don't expect a meaningful song with sentimental lyrics in the k-pop world.. Nah not gonna happen. Only minority of the songs are actually meaningful.
Found the meaning of the song online:
WHAT? Still don't get it but it'd okay ^_^
I love SNSD's costumes and they look so funky and to the tomboy-ish side. Kind of reminds me of f(x), the rock/punk style.
They look at a phone. A boy just texted them
So there's this rap by Sooyoung and Yuri. "AYO GG"
I thought it was kind of redundant, but fine it's still cute. They are acting very badass and stuff lol.
And then they put on their caps and Tiffany the gangsta comes up saying
"HEEEEERE COMES TROUBLE!"
And there's this awkward "AWHHHH" -_- Sounds like the sound you give when you finish pooping WTF. Ignore me.
Why do they have to wear contacts?! I think their natural eye colour is perfect! Why do you need lenses? Sorry I just don't like them wearing lenses it makes them look weird. It made f(x) weird too.
As an honest sone for 2 years I must say that the lenses look totally unnatural on them SORRY NOT SORRY, And you know what, I absolutely can't stand seohyun wearing eye enlarging lenses which makes her look like some big eyed person .__.
My favourite dance move:
The dubstep-ish part :)
Now I'm gonna talk about their hair. Sunny and Hyoyeon caught my attention the most:
First thing when I saw Sunny's hair : TOP. I always refer TOP to the "green-haired-guy" since I can't differentiate the guys in any guy group LOL, so I immediately thought of that.
Is it just me or Sunny's hair always reminds me of someone -_- Her purple hair reminds me of xiaxue, a singaporean blogger (;
Hyoyeon's hair looks like a paddlepop posicle. LOVE. I WANT HAIR LIKE THAT.
And I must say, their teaser pictures are REALLY GOOD. All of them look really gorgeous. I also like their new concept of a wild style, something that is different from their previous comebacks! Their outfits are okay too but I don't think a normal people could pull it off - outrageous prints, crop tops, sexy outfits.
Anyway, I still super love this new song although it's a little flawed. I must say that they look is pretty and perfect as ever! Their bodies are omg *_*
My rate: 1000000000/10 (Yes this is coming from a SONE so please understand.)
Fine, my unbiased rate: 8.5/10! <3
Thursday, January 3, 2013
The ultimate shopping guide for Bangkok!
Managed to move my lazy ass and start up on this post!
We went to quite a few places to shop:
1) MBK
2) Terminal 21
3) Night markets
4) Platinum Fashion Mall
5) Bonanza Mall (Opposite MBK building)
Out of all these malls, I highly recommend night markets, MBK and Bonanza Mall.
Being reallymoney concious a miserly person who cares about my money, I would go there because its clothes are nice and cheap ^_^
Gonna show you my hauls:
TERMINAL 21
For Terminal 21, I bought a sheer sleeveless top. It was my first day there so I was desperate to buy something. Bought it for $16, I thought it was ok-ily priced since Singapore's prices are about the same. I kind of regretted buying it though, cox you can get tops like these HALF THE PRICE at other places!!! However, it's a nice piece and it's very easy to match with other bottoms!
Terminal 21 is a super duper mega big shopping centre with 9 storeys. And each floor has its own theme according to their country. Eg. Japanese floor sells Jap. clothes, Rome floor sells rome stuff etc. Kind of like your typical orchard shopping centre, extremely modern. Also quite posh, with hagen daz and other posh eateries HAHA.
The best part is the toilets are also decorated according to the theme! Cool right! Actually visited some of the floors JUST to see the toilets! Great camwhoring place lol!
We went to quite a few places to shop:
1) MBK
2) Terminal 21
3) Night markets
4) Platinum Fashion Mall
5) Bonanza Mall (Opposite MBK building)
Out of all these malls, I highly recommend night markets, MBK and Bonanza Mall.
Being really
Gonna show you my hauls:
TERMINAL 21
For Terminal 21, I bought a sheer sleeveless top. It was my first day there so I was desperate to buy something. Bought it for $16, I thought it was ok-ily priced since Singapore's prices are about the same. I kind of regretted buying it though, cox you can get tops like these HALF THE PRICE at other places!!! However, it's a nice piece and it's very easy to match with other bottoms!
Terminal 21 is a super duper mega big shopping centre with 9 storeys. And each floor has its own theme according to their country. Eg. Japanese floor sells Jap. clothes, Rome floor sells rome stuff etc. Kind of like your typical orchard shopping centre, extremely modern. Also quite posh, with hagen daz and other posh eateries HAHA.
The best part is the toilets are also decorated according to the theme! Cool right! Actually visited some of the floors JUST to see the toilets! Great camwhoring place lol!
Every level has its own theme!
Yes, this is a japanese themed toilet.
Even the cubicles also jap. themed one.
London subway themed toilet
Cute cubicles again. *_*
I feel that the stuff at Terminal 21 is on the higher side compared to the other shopping centres. At least for me who is a typical tourist looking for cheap and good clothing. The clothes there are quite nice, but the price is quite expensive to me, be prepared to spend around $20 for MOST of the shops cox I think the clothes are shipped all they way from another country, and some of them are branded too! I saw a jap. shop selling Liz Lisa and other famous jap. brands O_O
If you are lucky you can find a store with cheap stuff lah, but quite rare if you ask me. And the cheap stuff full of 100 baht stuff are usually ugly. #justsaying. I think you are paying for the brand. If you like high quality stuff, you should go to terminal 21!
Buys:
Found in the japanese floor but doesn't look jap. O_O
MBK
MBK is also another massive shopping centre! There are many shops selling different items from food to beauty to clothing to electronics to furniture! Really a lot! I recommend you go to the directory and search for what you want, cox it's soooo big you may get lost there. I recommend you to go to the levels with many mini stalls! They don't really have any brand so it's much cheaper compared to the normal retail shops! What I recommend most are the t-shirts/tank tops! They have really cool designs that are cute, hipster-ish and also downright offensive ones -_- Actually have a lot of offensive ones lolol. One of the t-shirts has a topless girl back facing and then giving the finger -_- which really annoyed because it's so irritating and also rude. I DON'T LIKE STUFF THAT ARE IN-YOUR-FACE Y'KNOW.
Plus if you buy stuff from the mini stalls right, you can bargain :D Depending on how nice the shop keeper is. You should bargain only if you think it's overpriced, cox some owners think they can make extra cash by overcharging foreigners! But pplease ah, don't bargain if the shirt is already less than $8, very cheapskate HAHA.
Plus if you buy stuff from the mini stalls right, you can bargain :D Depending on how nice the shop keeper is. You should bargain only if you think it's overpriced, cox some owners think they can make extra cash by overcharging foreigners! But pplease ah, don't bargain if the shirt is already less than $8, very cheapskate HAHA.
Owl and 7-11 tank top for $6 each. I've a feeling I won't wear the 7-11 one cox it looks hobo-ish -_-
Pink Esprit purse (Imitation) for $24 and purple purse for $14
Time for my interesting story of my bargaining experience lai lai lai!
Initially the esprit purse was priced about $40, which is bloody expensive. I bargained like some shit and then I pretended to leave. And then the guy said he'll chrge me $24 only ^_^ YAYYY. If you wonder why it's so expensive, it's made out of real leather and ALMOST the same as the real one, except it's not truly made by esprit, well cox it's not the true brand.
NIGHT MARKETS
Night markets are pretty amazing. There is a really great variety of clothes there, their clothes are mostly priced $8 and below, super duper cheap!
Denim cropped top for $6! CAN''T YOU BELIEVE IT THIS BEAUTY IS WORTH $6 *_* I have been looking for such a top since last month!
PLATINUM FASHION MALL
Another mega large mall (again.), I was told that the shops there were supplier shops to the other stall owners so they may sell stuff at a cheaper price. Saw many thais carrying ginomous bags/luggage bags to haul stuff.
I didn't find much great buys there.. Hmm.. Not really my taste plus it was not exactly cheap, must of them were $8.. Maybe it was an unlucky day wtf. Still managed to buy some stuff.
Skirt for $8, floral shorts for $8 :)
BONANZA MALL
I SWEAR I LOVED THIS MALL THE MOST! Really.
It's kind of like a mini bugis street, quite small mall, only 3 levels. But I swear its shops are really awesome! Just look at the number of shorts I bought there lol.
Purple and yellow shorts for $8 each, high waisted shorts for $11, spiky shorts for $11
Super love them!<3 However the purple shorts and yellow shorts were bloody tight, either because I'm too fat or smth. Kind of can see the cameltoe thing except without the camel shape. T_T Plus, THAT WAS A SIZE M WTF. And I felt that my butt was gonna be exposed god damnit. Starting to doubt what is my real size lol. But I think it should go well with crop tops and bikini tops (although I don't even own one)
Random, but when is it age appropriate to own a bikini? I know people in the west start wearing bikinis when they're quite young, but as conservative Asians, if you wear bikini to beach confirm get a lot of disapproving stares. And then people will call you slutty -_- I think people in Sg only start wearing them when they are 18 wtf.
The rest of the shorts are extremely comfortable and i super love them! I finally have a pair of high waisted shorts <3 Thank god that I didn't buy the ones at cotton on which cost freaking $34.95!
In case you didn't know, let me warn you, the sizes there are EXTREMELY SMALL. Cox the people at Bangkok are super skinny! For a person like me who wears a size XS at cotton on, can't fit into an S size in F21 and wears S for practically everything, I was shattered into s million pieces after I found out that I couldn't wear an S size in Bangkok FML x 10000. My butt (or hips) is a size 34-36 so yeah.
Random pics of me wearing the hauls :)
my waist looks small here hooray ^_^
Anyway, some final words of advice:
1) Don't be afraid to bargain, cox the customer is always right! Insist if you really want it, and then pretend to walk away if they refuse. Most owners will call you back cox they don't wanna lose any customers.
2)If you aren't sure of what size to wear, feel free to approach to owners, most of them are very friendly ^_^ Some of them will even help you measure!
Omg finally I'm done I actually took a lot of effort to write this so proud of myself.
School is reopening so I won't be so active on my blog! :'(
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